Thursday, December 31, 2009

-bagus...lainkali buat lagi-

Ada apa dengan tahun baru....?
Tribanku dibawa pergi tanpa kerelaan...
sedihnya bila tiada sentimen 'nilai' dalam jiwa anak-anak muda sekarang...
respect...?
respond...?
4 bulan...?
tidakkah anda faham?
kemana tempatnya anda ingin pergi?
tidakkah anak-anak muda sekarang tiada perasaan?
aku hanya mampu berdoa agar kesayanganku Triban selamat pulang...

Sunday, December 27, 2009

-again-

Bus crash horror
10 killed as double-decker rams into road divider 2009/12/27 Jaspal Singh and Minderjeet Kaur

IPOH: Ten passengers were killed and two others injured when a double-decker Sani Express bus skidded and hit the road divider at Km272.8 of the North-South Expressway, 8km after the Ipoh Selatan toll plaza, at 1am yesterday.

Mutilated bodies were sprawled on the road and in the lower deck of the bus, some decapitated while others with their limbs torn apart due to the massive impact.

“The bus had skidded onto the road barrier to the left and veered to the divider on the right before coming to a halt,” state traffic police chief Superintendent Wan Abdullah Ishak said.

He said the metal barrier on the left side of the road pierced the left side of the bus, and this was probably what caused the deaths and injuries. The dead have been identified as :

Noor Jismi Noordin, 25, from Kangar;
Musa@Ismail Abdullah, 64, from Gurun;
Mohd Shukri Mohd Ali, 22, and Mohd Bilal Osman,
22, both from Sungai Besar, Selangor;
Shaharin Mohd Noor, 61, and Supiah Adam, 46, from Klang;
sisters Sharifah Raheel Aljunid Syed Harun, 21, and Sharifah Hasanah Aljunid, 15, from Sungai Petani;
and Ng Poh Ngoh, 23, and her brother Ng Kah Kit, 14, from Alor Star.

The injured were army major Mohd Razip Fadzir, 43, from Kangar, who suffered broken ribs and Siti Mulina Hashim, 30, from Langgar, Kedah, who received outpatient treatment for light injuries on the face and body.

The 38-year-old driver has been remanded for five days to facilitate investigations.



mr_bread said: another bad news...my dad sister-in-law(Zaiton Adam) older sister's...Al-Fatihah to all allahyarham-allahyarhamah... May Allah blessed them...

Friday, December 25, 2009

-regret-

...23 Sept '09...

She said,she wants to meet me. "...She only remember you..." mom said after she arrived from Kuantan.

...13 Dec '09...

" She still asking 'bout you Joe..."

But I cant. I have to catch up the bus. She cant attend Mimi's wedding because of her illness.

...25 Dec '09...

...Innalillahiwa'inna 'ilaihiraaji'uun...

May Allah blessed Allahyarhamah Mak Long Ani...

mr_bread said: I dont know...it's really shock...tak sempat nak jumpa T.T

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

-water-

“Kemudian sesudah itu, hati kamu juga menjadi keras seperti batu, bahkan lebih keras lagi. Padahal di antara batu-batu itu ada yang terpancar dan mengalir air sungai daripadanya dan ada pula di antaranya yang pecah-pecah terbelah lalu keluar mata air daripadanya dan ada juga di antaranya yang jatuh ke bawah kerana takut kepada Allah; sedang Allah tidak sekali-kali lalai daripada apa yang kamu kerjakan” [al-Baqarah 2: 74]

Bertindaklah sebelum hati manusia hitam dan beku. Sebelum lebih keras dari batu. Yang hanya Neraka mampu meleburkannya.


Bak kata Abu Saif, "...kata-kata yang indah ada terjemahan kepada kepercayaan, fikiran dan perasaan yang indah. indahkan dalaman, insya Allah indahlah perkataan..."

InsyaAllah~

Friday, December 18, 2009

-hijiri-

Salam muharram 1431...semoge kedatangan tahun baru memberi seribu satu permulaan yang baru. Semalam aku menyambut tahun baru keseorangan di pejabat. Haihhh...nak balik dan-dan hujan lebat, tersangkut aku dekat pejabat. Takpelah, kalau doa sorang-sorang ni boleh aku mintak benda-benda private skikit,hehee...ah? Berbalik pada cerita, kepulangan ke rumah disambut dengan ketiadaan sesiapa melainkan abangku seorang. Rupa-rupanya semua pergi jemaah kat surau.

Semalam aku gagal lagi datang pejabat. Mungkin kepenatan agaknya. Minggu ni aku dah tak singgah opis dah. Penat menjadi runner membantutkan kerajinan aku disamping aku nak khatamkan segala buku-buku yang aku dah stop dekat 2-3 bulan lepas. Hadeihhhh. Tapi malam tadi merupakan malam bersama keluarga, bercerita tentang salasilah keluarga, kenangan, sejarah silam dan sebagainya...nostalgic sungguh,hahahaha...

Dan berkenaan sesebuah topik, aku mula menanyakan soalan cepumas. ternyata pandangan mak lebih kepada sesuatu yang tegas. Tegas. Adakah aku tidak tegas? Dan maklumbalas yang diterima adalah agak pedih dan segala apa penjelasan mak mempunyai alasan yang munasabah. Benarkah? Jika begitu seberapa banyak yang aku ada? Nothing. Kosong. Benar. Mengapa? Aku juga tidak tahu. Namun aku tidak cepat melatah. Kerana aku tahu setiap pendapat manusia berbeza. Berbeza mengikut situasi pembesaran seseorang. Aku hanya mampu terdiam dan berfikir.

Ya. Perjalanan ini masih panjang dan masih banyak yang aku mesti lalui. Perubahan. Aku sedang melalui sebuah perubahan. Ianya bukan satu pilihan. Tetapi satu kemestian.

Harus berubah.
Sedang berusaha.
Bukan cakap kosong.
Namun,
Siapa yang melihat?
Siapa yang tahu tentangnya?
Siapa yang tahu?
Siapa yang membantu?
Siapa yang memahami?
Bagaimana melaluinya?
Kenapa berubah?

...Hijrah...

Thursday, December 17, 2009

-runner-

3 weeks later...
Rider of the week...hope today i wont get late again...

Monday-Late...so tired coming back from 'merewang' at Kuantan. All my sibling got enough rest on that day while I'm still in the office,struggling....*sigh*

Tuesday-Late again...went to KPM to send my dad's passport, he forgot to bring it. He's in JB......then send my sisters to Putrajaya(again?) in the afternoon...during dusk,I nearly get killed (riding like Rossi)when we're lost contact with! I have to stopped my work,rushing to Alamanda and find her by myself like a mom lost his son...wth? Her phone broken....me and me brother just sighing....*sigh*


Wednesday-Late again...back home i've got to send my mom to seminars at Precint 16(again?). 8-11pm...cannot sigh...hilang pahala,hehee...

Thursday? Late oso,but not as late as usual,hahahahaaa...and I can see my boss climbing stairs from the junction. Oh, he used to attend a meeting outside. Whew~and guess what? I forgot to pickup my dad's 'cendawan busut' from Kak Yan. Yaaaa Raaabbbiiii...3pm oledi? Ayoooo maaa...malasnye nak pegi-balik KPM(again?) nih. Adeihhh~my mom siap call suroh pegi amik(dengan nada awek nak mintak tengok wayang...) haihhhh....aku jugak...dahla aku baru lepas lelap kat belakang tadi,pastu nak mintak keluar pulak...main2~hahahaha~

Friday?Putrajaya lagi(arghhh!)...Don't late again! Tomorrow you've got 'one-whole-day' of fieldtrip!!!

Monday, December 14, 2009

-midday-

Ya Allah,
Ampunilah dosa-dosaku,
Ampunilah dosa kedua-dua ibu bapaku,
Ampunilah dosa umat islam yang masih hidup atau yang telah meninggal dunia...

Ya Allah, Ya Fattah,
Berilah petunjuk dan hidayah kepadaku,
Berilah keampunan padaku,
Bukakanlah pintu rezeki yang halal padaku,
Bukakanlah pintu hatiku untuk menerima segala ilmu yang aku pelajari...
Dan terangkanlah hatiku dalam menjalani segala ujian-Mu...

Ya Allah,
Kuatkanlah imanku,
Tabahkanlah hatiku dalam menjalani dugaan sepanjang hidupku ini...

Thursday, December 10, 2009

-out-

off...to the shore....umur panjang kita berjumpa lagi...

-exhausted-

2 weeks droves out...

lots of events
lots of works
lots of peoples
lots of sacrifices
lots of feelings
lots of energy
lots of papers
lots of...

2 weeks droves out...

least sleep
least eat
least rest
least courage
least soul
least hope
least money
least...

Everything you get
everything you lost
anytime you felt so lame
...Ikhlaas...
when the Blesses rise
its the real happiness
ameen...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

-method-

Wahhh...penatnya. Berjalan-jalan membawa 'belaan' ke bandar ibu kota sungguh memenatkan...dan juga menyeronokkan,hahahaa. Saket-saket kakiku lenguh akibat sering berpatah balik dari hall ke hall dek kerana 'kelabu mata' untuk membuat keputusan. Akhirnya,hahahaa...harammm. Sempatla rembat headfon untuk menggantikan headfon lama yang dah pekak sebelah. Jadilaaa. Ah, selamat datang wahai ahli baru!hehee...nantila baru aku bagi nama kat ko k?eh,jap2...aku panggil ko HEBI,ok?okla ek?hehehe..welcome to the house,Hebi! Huhuh,boleh tahan jugak boros aku nih. Tadi nyaris-nyaris aku shopping sakan...sebabnya? Satu....idaman kalbu dah tertonggok depan mata beb, murah plak tuh. Ditambah plak dengan kebolehan poket,gagagaaa :D....

Dah keluar je, terus shoot pergi lepak makan jap. Penat dan lapar, singgah di gerai burger raja...hahaha. Kawan aki nih sibuk sangat dengan 'freelance' beliau...aku sekadar tengok je,sambil melahap pau daging dengan rakus. Nak ditegur, takpelah. Benda dah jalan. Aku cuma sekadar memberi kata-kata nasihat tentang 'freelance' beliau. Lainkali ingat tu, memang seronok buat detailing(bagi yang mempunyai syahwat terhadap 'details' ), but we have to take seriously...time management. Its on how you deal with the client. How? This is how...

Its not the only way, I'm just tell you a little bit of my experience. First thing before you deal with people, always...always refer to people who knows well about dealing(if you know nothing). If that...ah, susahla nak taip. Aku cakap melayu jela. Ok, kalau kita takde experience dalam dealing-mendealing ni,ada baiknya kita minta pendapat atau nasihat dari mereka yang berpengalaman. Macam kes kawan aku ni, aku tak tahula dia deal cemana ngan client. Takpelah,aku pon tanak serabutkan kepala dia. Erm, aku sebenarnya bukan nak bebel pasal reno ke,ape ke sebab aku dah bebel dah dalam entry -cable- sebelum nih. Aku cume nak bagi tips pada kawan-kawan dan adek-adek semua(chewahhh~) on how to make a fast design using SketchUp.

Attention, especially for designers...

Firstly aku nak bagi sedikit pantang larang. Tak banyak pon...nasihat aku, JANGAN BUAT DETAILS! Haa...geram sebenarnya ni. Are you design a structure? Or designing? Come on dude, you're designing. When you design, you got method right? It's like on what did you prepared for submission drawing, what is it? Key plan - location plan - site plan - floor plan, elev, section... then baru masuk typical detail,special detail. Dari scale 1:1000 hingga ke 1:5. Macam tula jugak bila nak naikkan 3D...from plan, get the main 'form'. Bila dah dapatkan form, baru carve-push-pull the plane, masukkan detail. Client dont understand your design? Give them the pictures! Search the images that you want to fill in. Jangan naikkan interior detail! I'm sure you'll be yelled by your architect if you do that. I'm pretty sure...tips. There's a lot of tips that you're gonna get if you don't think about money. Learn...because we're too young in this field. Others said, You're dumbass, jadila kuli seumur hidup, kau dah kena tipu...go to hell about that crap. Learn...learn...learn...be tough because its not easy for people(like me) to survive till the end. Good things will come up, we just dont know when it appears....And don't be shy to accept our mistake. Express what you want. Ask. Ask. Ask.

Patience...sincere...your intention. Because we are still learn...what will you do to get knowledge? Think...depending on 'yourself'...

mr_bread said: sorry if this entry ade sedikit emosi...hahahhaa~tp akukan cool~ :D

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

-meself-

(sementara tunggu hujan berenti...)

but…can i?

er…do i?

em…i fell in love on construction by following my dad to construction site…almost bridge, that's why i loved bridge and calatrava…and i supposed to love structures and physics…but i do hate them…i loved chemistry…and building construction…and the beauty of drawing…

…day by day…
…month by month…
…year by years…

…and i realized that i cant do engineering because i dont wanna see ‘them’. i wanna ‘create’ something that people can see…can feel…and loved…i dont know what ‘architecture’ is about before i got into this…i do not know anything,what do they do…who are they…even ‘what’ are they…i just know,they do drawings…drawings…drawings…i dont know about designing…i just know how to express what i want, or what they want in other way…i was dreaming that i have my own spaces…my little-compact-living…i dream of it till now…

…i do photography. when i was a kid, i finished a roll of 36 in a day…just taking photos. anything…nowadays,my dream come true(welcome Triban!:D ) and i got more than 7Gb (about 4k pics!) in a month! And i'm a collector too. hehehe…my mom always ‘blabbering’ because i like to collected anything that i think its got value…dunno.its like photography…something you freeze the memory on things…

…i do making souvenirs. i always do when i got feel wanna give someone a special gift…even though i dont have anyone special that time…even ‘fren’…or ‘bestfren’…i dun have one =) …i just got myself…and family…well,people always said; kawan ketawa senang dapat, kawan menangis susah nak jumpa…now ive getting too busy on work *sigh*...

by now…i realized. i have to be independent…be myself only for myself and family…i likes to make peoples happy. and i know my ability…i have to make it real…make it tough…i have to turn it into reality, spaces…

..but i cant…i know my limits. i cant manage, i cant faced people, i cant makes people believe in me. i cant speak…i can express it, not present it…i can only work on backstage…

…what is my goal?see me in 5 years forward…where am i?

…i don’t know…always peeking in my mind…sigh*


(akhirnya...hujan tetap tak mau aku balik T_T)