- fiver -

2011 - 2015.
Time flies away.
Remember back what I've been,
It's a long-hardship-tireless-day.

But it ain't some path I've dream of,
Some plans got lost & carried away,
Soon there are another plans to take care of,
Hopes my spirits never decay.

Because it's my story.
Dunya & akhirah,
It's mine to worry.
Not Ahmad, Siti or Peah.

Johariatan, 121215.

- shallow -

Suatu malam...

Bigi sedang tekun melakukan tugasan beliau. Triban dari tadi melihat seperti ada sesuatu yang tidak kena dengan Bigi.

"Kau okey tak Bigi?"

"Eh, aku okey. Kenapa?"

"Tak ada apa-apa...saja tanya..." balas Triban sambil tersenyum kelat.

"Okey." balas Bigi mudah sambil meneruskan tugasan.

Triban melihat darah menitik dari parut lama Bigi. Sama ada Bigi sengaja menyembunyikan 'kesakitan' lama atau dia sendiri tidak sedar dia menyeksakan diri.

Triban hanya mampu melepaskan keluhan berat dan berdoa supaya 'sahabat' beliau tabah.

-pilgrims-

" Kuat sikit Raju..."

Murah benar air mata ini

Saat tiga baris perkataan itu terngiang di minda

Lemah benar jiwa ini

Ketika diketuk dihenyak dan dipersenda

Namun walau jiwa berparut begini

Yakin dengan naluri hati mengisi

Bertabah kuatkan jasmani

Selagi kepercayaan kemas disisi

"Kuat sikit, Raju..."

-demotivating-

Several times I feel very demotivated

Caused by people

Whom never tired
To cursed people

And several times also

I pampered myself

To be patience

Because of people

Whom never fail

To motivates me to be strong.

-longing-

Okay. 

I miss her.

The end.

-obstructions-

“People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, 

almost like characters in a favourite book. 

When you finally close the cover, 

the characters have told their story 

and you start up again with another book, 

complete with new characters and adventures. 

Then you find yourself 

focusing on the new ones, 

not the ones from the past.”

- Nicholas Sparks, The Rescue. -

-it's time-

-weary-

Make me smile.

I don't want much.

Just a smile from you,

Enough to blows away all the sorrows.

-doctrines-

Bila bersuara kena. 

Bila diam pun kena. 

Ambil kena kata. 

Tak ambil pun kena kata. 

Itulah dugaan roger. 

Kau anak, dia ketua keluarga.

Niat kita mahu ke syurga.

Jangan sampai tersungkur ke neraka.

-finale-

Once upon a time,

10 years ago...

The end.

-painful-

Why did you come back?
Go away. You had a person already. 
I am not a 'friend' to you anymore. 
It's not like I want to destroy our friendship,
But I just can't. 

Please understand me. 
Men & women cannot be 'bestfriend'.
Unless...you know what I mean.
That's the law.

Please. If you love me, just go.
You can't have everything in the world.
To achieve something, you need to sacrifice something.
Life is tough. Tough as Robert Frost words.

...

I'm tired.

-path-

Life is exactly like wheel. 

Doesn't matter if your life going up or down, live in an adventure.

But hey, 

better than being safe and boring 

at the center of the wheel and got nowhere to go right?

-perfect timing-

There is always raining on November.

-sacrifice-

Sacrifice.

What does this word means to you?

Qurban.

Well,

This year it means a lot to me.

A lot bigger.

And that means 'something' big will come.

Well,

There is a good news 'hiding' behind bad news.

Duas & patiences.

=)

-reason-

People always said to me, 

'Don't work too hard for yourself!"

'How the hell you can be so patience to do that kind of thing?'

Well, 

I'm sure all of you knew,

I'm not good in 'verbal presentation'...
In other word 'very bad'
Nor experts in some kind of newest technology...so,

Let the drawings do the talking.

Manually.

Because in the end,

I'm happy to knew that I worked my ass hard

By selling my work 

On the papers and models

Rather than words.

p/s: Very bad verbally. No joke. 

-standback-

Back on your foot.

That worth nothing if you stranded now.

-crumbled-

Yes.

I'm missing someone.

My friend, real bad.

-apprehension-

Ya Allah~Jauhkanlah aku dari mendekati
manusia-manusia yang tak dapat diselamatkan lagi
hati serta jiwa mereka.
Yakni yang sudah gelap dan keras hatinya.
Aku takut aku terlalu lemah untuk tunduk
kepada mereka jika terdedah dengan akhlak-akhlak yang buruk.
Semoga zuriatku tidak tergolong
dari golongan seperti 'itu',inshaAllah.

*ameen*

-birus-

Another lousy week.